Push...

I need to get out...
I need to get out to reality...
I have been so reclused.
Being with one person after my divorce was bitter sweet. He offered me comfort and love and all cuddly things you get in a relationship....
Then it ended.
No real reason, he just didn't have time for me. Career takes priority over things like that.
I get it.
Next step for me?
I have no idea.... I have a few friends, I definitely have family.
I just need to take care of me... What does that mean.





I have no idea.

Giving back

I'm on the upside.
I'm in great spirits. No need for boohooing anymore....
This is me, this is my life.
I love my life, my family, my fur babies and I am completely content and stable. I will return some of my past to their right owners this week, they probably won't care but it will make me feel better. Giving something back to someone that is a tad ( not completely) but a little outside of the box makes me feel warm and fuzzy for at least a tad.
We will see how that works out. Probably no response but I am ok with that. It's my end I care about... Doing the right thing.
Peace bitches...

Live and let go....

I have loved... I have lost...
I have experienced it for the first time.
I love to love...
I feel lost but loved. I'm holding out hope for love. I want to find a man that makes me happy.
I haven't felt loss in a long time and I did last week. It hurts.
I just want to be loved 😘

I self destruct....

I can't help it.... I just do... I don't know how or why I just do...
I don't know how to fix myself or find my way.
I'm not good at dating, I'm not good at anything but loving my people and Wylie and Sadie :(
I'm lost.... I'm strong, but I'm alone.
A mans touch is nice but I get ahead of myself. I expect too much. I'm too needy I feel.
I have issues.... Major issues and that's hard to admit and own up too.
I let something go that was special, not typical for me, but special in its own way.
I self destruct.
I let my guard down and opened my arms expecting too much. I'm a hopeless romantic but a realist.
I'm lost. I have everything but nothing but companionship. I lost that yesterday. Not purposely just out of needing more. I need to work on myself.
I don't miss my old life, I embrace my new life, it's just weird....
I want to be a good person, I want to love to my max and I did and it bit me in the ass.
I needed too much.
Why do I need anything from anyone? I don't know but I do. My heart is empty, my soul is full with love from my dogs and family but my heart is empty ;(
It will get better, they tell me, you will be ok.....
I live with demons....
I love and hate my demons but they are mine, and mine to use as I wish.

New life

So, my friend Jenny inspired me to blog again....





Just don't know what to say at the moment...

I'm a new person now so let's meet Kasie.

I'm an independent woman.
I love people as long as they don't get in the way of my dreams.
I'm moody...
I have become very independent in my ways. Living alone does that to you.
I feel my life in others eyes took a drastic turn, like people didn't see it coming and they blame that on me for breaking the dream.
I feel like some people just don't know the real me.
I am going to try and ease into this as much as possible but there is no easy way.
First of all don't EVER except being called stupid. Did it for 10+ years, not acceptable.
You are better than that.
I lost a lot of friends from my divorce but it made me see who my true friends were.
 which was not a lot... Everyone went to the dark side aka my ex
It's never ok to feel abused.
I can remember walking on egg shells every day I came home, not cool.
I was called stupid everyday and had things thrown at me.
I'm at the house alone and divorced now but happier then I have ever been. God is good.
I will make piece and be happy in some shape or form.
I don't trust hardly anyone.
People fail you....
I had a very good lesson in people failing you. You think you find it..... Nope,,,,



Live and learn.... I have learned so much from my past I can't put into words. Glad people left but people stayed that were more glad people.


I need to blog more often, it feels good,