Just some thoughts...

I think this is my favorite gift of all my gifts this year. One of my dear friends made this for me. Every letter represents someone I have lost in my life. This was therapeutic for her, because the A, represents her own daughter we lost in October. Thank you Wendy.

S - Sharon Leewright - Aunt
Sharon was a beautiful person inside and out. She was taken way too soon from a very rare disease, scaladerma.

E - Evelyn Edwards - Aunt
There are no words to explain to you what a kind hearted, loving person my Aunt Eve was. Cancer took her from us and now she is in heaven. She was definitely one of a kind.
G - Grant Edwards - Cousin
If you read my blog you will know the story of how we lost Grant, but if you are new, he died on HWY 380 between Decatur and Denton on his way home. They think he fell asleep at the wheel. Hit a truck head on. He died instantly. He left behind a baby boy, that was only a few months old. He was always a dare devil, and is greatly missed. He died the day before my birthday.

A - Ashlie Wright - Best Friend
We lost Ashlie on October 16th. She died from a aneurysm. She is proof that when God wants you, he will take you. She was fine one minute, gone the next. She was truly a one of a kind best friend. I miss her so much, and I suppose I always will. she left behind a five month old baby.

All four were gone way too soon.
RIP

On a lighter note, my wonderful father made this for Jessie and I:

I was sick almost the whole Christmas vacation. I suspect food poisoning. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die Christmas Eve and Christmas morning, but luckily I felt better by Christmas night. Nothing worse than needing to shit and puke at the same time. Not afraid to tell ya, it was BAD!

Other than that, my vacation was great. Jessie and I took the pool cover off the pool yesterday to clean out the leafs that had fallen in between the water fall and pool. We are going to have to n-rigg something up tonight to try and keep the leafs from flying in.

OH!! Funny story:

Jessie and I bought the boys Guini Pigs for Christmas without asking their parents first. I know it's cruel and mean, but the look on their faces when we showed the boys their last Christmas present was PRICELESS!!

Isn't JJ cute??

The boys should have fun with them, I hope. They were both suppose to be males, (so the pet store guy says), come to find out they have different parts. Cazen chose the "bigger guini pig", which we later found out is in fact a girl. She's probably pregnant!! HA HA HA!! I think my sister might just kill me. Let's just say I won't be surprised if a box shows up on my door and their is a bunch of baby guini pigs.

I want to buy a gas/charcoal grill for the backyard. I guess I need to do some research and see if they is even possible. I can't wait till this spring/summer to use our pool and enjoy all the hard work we put into our backyard.

I only have to work 3 days this week, so hello 4 day weekend all over again. I'm pumped!

I had a crazy idea about jumping a plane to Cancun for the 4 day weekend, but I'm sure that would be WAY over our price range, but man that would be fun.

Happy Friday

- So, I haven't blogged in a while. I didn't want to even put my Christmas tree up this year, but finally did.
- I am not one to get depressed but losing Ashlie unexpectedly has put a gloom over the holiday season for everyone.
- The weather doesn't help either. I hate cold weather.
- I am ready for Christmas. We have decided not to buy Christmas for each other this year so we can buy a new grill for the back porch. Our grill is almost burnt out of the bottom.
- I have to go to the House of Blades today to finish up my Christmas shopping.
- The presents under my tree look a little lonely. Everyone got gift cards this year except the boys.
- My sisters took them to get their pictures done this week.

- Don't let their precious faces fool you. They are a handful, but I love them so much.
- I draw legal documents all day and have done Will after Will, but there is something creepy about drafting your own will.
- Everybody should have a Will. If you own a home, have kids, married or not. It is more important than anybody realizes. If you have the money, get one drawn up.
- I didn't realize it but if hubby and I died at the same time, 1/2 our shit would go to my parents and 1/2 to his parents.
- Trust me, that does not need to happen.
- OK didn't mean to go off about Wills but I think people only think about older people needing one. Think about this... What would happen to your kids, your house, your car, etc.

Anyways, Happy Holiday, everyone and have a safe and Happy New Year!

SNL Kardashian Divorce

This is really good. It really brings the LOL'S!!
http://www.nbc.com/saturday-night-live/video/kardashian-divorce-special/1366614

Reality Check

Please, please, please, if you do anything today call and tell the people you love, that you love them.

We had the golf benefit Saturday, October 15th for my brother in laws nephew. Oh how our world would change that day. I was texting Ashlie, one of my best friends and my neighbor of 15 years.  Her and her husband were going to come over and hang out that night. They had went to Ranch Bash in Fort Worth and were on their way home. Ashlie said she wasn't feeling well. She laid her head down in the truck, and fell asleep. Ronnie got her home and tried to wake her up with no response from her, he called an ambulance and they care flighted her to Harris Hospital. By the time we got to see her, she was gone.
No brain activity... She is gone ... They pronounced her deceased an October 16th at 7:27 p.m.
I was fortunate enough to see her and to say goodbye to her, but it wasn't the same. I was saying goodbye to a best friend, and I could tell she was no longer there.
How could this happen? I was texting her hours before this and she was perfectly fine???
They tell us it was a intracerrebral brain hemorrhage. It can happen to anybody, out of the blue, for no reason at all. Ashlie had just had a baby girl named Brenlie. Brenlie is only 5 months old. My heart breaks for her family, Ronnie and their baby.
All I know to do is let Brenlie know everyday how special, kind hearted, generous and loving her mother was. My heart still aches because I want to ask God why, but my faith tells me there is a reason for everything. Ashlie was a organ donor and saved 12 peoples lives. 12 people!! One of which was a child at Cooks Children, right next store who had been in the hospital for months waiting on a kidney transplant. I guess Ash was his parents angel. While they received an angel, we lost one. I urge you to become an organ donor, if you are not already. The donor organization allows the patient to recover for a year before Ashlie's family can meet the recipient. I believe this will be a great help in the healing process. In the mean time, we have Brenlie. And she is a piece of Ashlie.
So, please, please, please hug the ones you love and let them know you love them. We never know when our time on earth is through.

Rest in Peace Sweet Ashlie... I will see you again one day.

There will be a benefit for Ashlie on Saturday, November 5, 2011 from 2:00 p.m. - 11 p.m. at the Decatur Women's Building, in Decatur, Texas. After the Ranch radio station found out about what happen, almost all the bands that played that day signed a brand new guitar that will be auctioned off. There are also several bands that played at Ranch Bash that will be playing at the Benefit for Ash. I hope you can make it out and support a good cause.

- pool is done

I'm SO glad it's Friday

- The backyard is coming along. I will post some more pics this weekend. The porch is completely stained and the post have been rocked.

- Well house has been rocked.

- Pool will be done hopefully "fingers crossed" on Tuesday.

- Decking is to be this weekend. I hope they pour it tomorrow.

- Work is work. I have about 10 foreclosures to do this week. major power down.

- My parents and sisters family are going to Port Aransas this weekend. I wish we could go but oh well.

- We have a deadline and we got to make it.

- Getting the back yard fence up will be bitter sweet. Sadie will not be aloud to be in the back yard. Ever.

- She cannot be in a confined fence. She will go crazy and I don't want her digging to try and stay cool. She's getting the boot to the front yard :(

- I hate it when you have two friends that have a petty argument and then can't work it out. It puts me in the middle automatically. Especially when the only time they see each other is at my house.

- That sux.

- If one more contractor tells me "I'm sorry but I didn't account for "blah blah blah", it's gonna be $900 more dollars" I'm going to scream.

- 3 people have done that too us. We can only "pad" a loan for so much people. That $700 here and $800 there are starting to add up.

-I'm hoping we can get locked in at a really rocking interests rate. Not bragging but we have excellent credit and I'm hoping to get in the 2 or 3%. We shall see.

- I can't decide if I want to stick to my guns about not planting grass until spring, but I'm sure my husband will do it anyways so I don't know why I even bother.

- He ask my opinion, but I'm not sure why.

- Shopping for new patio furniture is becoming a beating. It's expensive and it sucks!

I could buy a whole new living room set for what they want to sale that patio crap for.

- We found one we liked on Sams Club website, but it was over $1,000.00.

- We have a bunch of left over wood, probably $700.00 worth, in which our contractor said we went over. Anyways, the husband claims he is going to build a nice cedar table to match everything so all we need to buy is chairs. The chairs he wants are $364 each. YES, I said EACH!!

- ready to be done with this crap, but Lord am I grateful to be able to do it. Some people aren't. So as much of a pain as it is, it kind of makes you feel good to know how hard you are working for something that will be so beautiful when it's done.

- I'm try to help with a benefit golf tournament for my sisters brother in laws son. He dove into the lake off of a boat dock. It was dark. There was no water. The lake is drying up. He is paralyzed. He is 19, has one child and another on the way. This happened about a month ago and I was hesitant to write about it until I knew all the details. He survived, but he is paralyzed, on a ventilator and is only able to speak when they "release his bubble" not really sure what that means but it has something to do with the ventilator. He did not sustain any brain injury, but he broke his back and neck and severely injured his spinal cord. The doctors say with determination and hard work he might walk again. He has gained some feeling in his hand and can move them a little, but nothing on his legs. He is now in a advanced therapy hospital in Dallas. I think Baylor maybe? Anyways, we are going to put together a benefit golf tournament for him in October. If anybody knows anybody who would like to sponsor a hole or donate a prize, please let me know and I will forward the appropriate documents to you.

Granite

- peace :)

Steel and plumbing

- peace :)

I splurged!! I spent 2.99 on a iPhone app for blog press!! Eek!!

I'm such a tight ass...

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Porch

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Pool step 1

Yep we got a hole !



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I almost cried when my favorite tree hit the ground ;(

* Literally.... this was my favorite tree. We built our home around this tree. This tree was the biggest tree on our property. Unfortunately, it was standing where our pool will be ;( I hated to do it. But, there was no way around it. If we would have left it standing, it would have been a nuisance on the pool. I guess we could have built a lazy river around it, but I didn't see that being very practical.

* The guys doing our porch have managed to put a hole in our living room ceiling. Apparently the jack slipped while they were in the attic. Fortunately, Kip and his crew seem to be very honest down to earth people and will fix it before they finish the job.

* Day 2 of them there... I hear glass crashing to the floor in my dining area. One guy accidentally lifted a bored to far above his head, the results of which sent one of our globes from our chandelier above our table to the floor. No biggie, except we bought that chandelier because we loved it so much, but they have now been discontinued. Trey aren't normal clear globes. They are tan globes with white something-or-others in it.... Not sure how to explain it but I think I might have a hard time finding a new one.

* It could have been worse.

* I'm ready for shade in the back yard. This summer heat and no covered porch is wearing me out.

* I'm excited about our new additions to our house. I know pools are expensive and are a pain, but we have always wanted to be able to do what we are doing.

* We are very fortunate to be able to have what we have today. God has blessed us so much with great jobs, great neighbors and great family.

* Oh yeh, and I'm glad it is Friday. Now I gotta get to work on some documents for a closing this afternoon.

peace

testing 2

first step. we tore down the back porch. added concrete. next step porch.

FRIDAY!!

* New Trailer for Dexter Season 6. I LOVE this show. I've been watching since Season 1.
* I also like Shameless It's a must see. I can't wait for Season 2.
* I will have to wait till October for those two shows.
* If anybody forgot I am a HUGE fan of Big Brother! I have the app, I watch Big Brother After Dark while I work out, it's ridiculous. This year they brought back Jeff and Jordan, my favorite duo. Unfortunately they also brought back Brendon and Rachel, who make me want to vomit in my mouth and scratch my eyes out. Rachel's voice makes me cringe. I. cant. stand. her.
* She won HOH last night. Kill me now. This week is going to suck with her prancing around the house. BARF!
* So... I smashed my middle finger in our shop door and I'm pretty sure there is no hope for my nail. It's black, it hurts and it's probably going to fall off.
* I have decided designing and deciding on a in ground pool is almost as complicated as building a house. You would think it would be a piece of cake. It's not.
* Oh, and take a Xanex before asking the cost to build one. Your going to need it.
* Sometimes it's just easier to go with my husbands opinion because if I don't he will use the next few hours analyzing as to why we need to do it his way. I'm not bitching, it's just an observation.
* I'm glad it is Friday, but man oh man, we's gots a lot of work to do around the house.
* I'll try and post pics of the backyard as they develop.
peace.

I didn't realize the one I posted yesterday was Part 2. Here is Part one, done in 2010

History of Rap (7/19/11)

BUSTED !

That's right! I busted my bro-in-law for 132 points!

Wednesday What Ups!!

So... I know everyone under the sun is talking about Casey Anthony trial and how she was found NOT guilty. I have to say, I was shocked! Now she will walk free and clear of any wrong doing for that poor child. I understand the jurors point of view in regards to the state evidence. There was no cause of death ruled and mostly the prosecutions case was that Casey Anthony is a lying no good shitty mother. You can't convict people of first degree murder because they are a scum bag. I want to know why she wasn't charged with dumping the body, but then again there was no really proof of that either. Point blank we have another OJ on our hands. Whether that child's death was intentional or an accident she tried to cover up, Casey Anthony still did wrong in handling it and should be punished for more than lying to a cop.

... Anyways, I gotta quit talking about that case, it's irritating.

* I hate getting up and working out in the morning, but really once I actually get up and get dressed, it's not so bad at all.
* I'm ready for another vacation.
* Patio furniture is ridiculously expensive. I could probably by a new kitchen table and chairs for what it's going to costs to get a nice set for outside!
* I always find myself longing for the weekend, but I love my job.
* My favorite apps on my Iphone is Words With Friends, Hanging With Friends and Zombie Farm. I like the news apps too, but that's just cause I'm a news freak.
* I wish I knew how to speak Spanish.
* I'm kind of getting sick of facebook, but I catch myself checking it several times a day.
* Something weird: The last month I keep getting blisters on my feet from running. First it was the back of my heels on both feet, then that healed and a few weeks later I got blister on the inside of the side of my foot. I got them on both feet exact same spot. (pic below)
* I could barely walk Saturday because of the pain. It was dried up by Sunday and I was good to go when I worked out this morning, although it's still red.
I just bought brand new Nikes, so that can't be the problem. WHAT TO DO??

RIP Ryan Dunn

Ok, so it's a little late, but he was my favorite Jackass.

I can only hope they were dead on impact. But, at 130-140 mph, really what do you expect. It was bound to happen at that rate of speed.

Thirsty Thursday

* SO... we have been trying to decide how are new back yard is going to look. I have been trying to dig up pics off the Internet to get a feel for it. The one above is just an idea. We are building onto our porch and adding a pool in the near future. The porch is suppose to be cedar with vaulted ceiling and ceiling fans, flood lights, speakers, the works. I can't wait. Our backyard is going to be so cool next spring.
* Anybody recommend a pool builder. There is only one in Decatur and I have not heard any first hand count of how they are. I am going to be picky on the pool builder because I have heard plenty of horror stories and I don't want us to go down that road.
* I love my job, I just got my 4th of July bonus. That will be a nice addition to our savings.
* I think we will be boating this weekend, but try and be out of there before the crazy people line up to watch the fireworks in Runaway Bay.
* While walking out of the house this morning to work out I saw a jack rabbit and two deer in our front yard. It was still dark outside, so I got a flash light to make sure I knew what I was looking at. I figures they would run off, but they just sat there and stared back at me.
* Rumor has it we have a cougar with cubs on the loose. Our neighbors has tracks in his yard around his pond.
* I think it's cool and scary all at the same time.
* When other people perform major PDA it grosses me out and makes me uncomfortable. I'm not talking holding hand and the occasional peck, I'm talking people that come hang out or you see at the store and they can't keep their tongues in their mouth. Am I weird?
* We go through a ton of paper plates.
* If someone calls my house or work and ask for the manager, I immediately hang up. That's the first sniff of a salesman.
* I still haven't got to see me new nephew and he is over a month old now. Hopefully we can work out a time, because I want to be as close to him as my other nephews.
* I gotta get back to work.
peace ;)

Eminem - Space Bound

It's a disturbing video. But it's pretty good.

Thirsty Thursday

*Last week was amazing in Mexico. Good friends. Good drinks. Good times.
*This week, not so much... sucks...
*My husband is in a hearing (as I type) with the WCAD. Tax people stress me out. If we could sale our home for what they say it is worth, we would have sold it. It would be stupid to keep it.
urgghhhhh . . . .so stressful.
* Next year will be worse when we put a pool in.
* Even though we do well for ourselves, money stresses me out.
* I like the new Bad Meets Evil CD. No, I'm not black. I just LOVE EMINEM. I can't help it. I always have, always will.
* I am ghetto like that I guess.
* I really don't use twitter. I don't really like it. Why can't everyone use facebook. It's the same thing, kind of.
* I am the only lady in the office this week, which means I am SO busy. BUT, rather busy than bored so, I'll take it.
* We had a nice Fathers Day dinner steak and baked potato Sunday. I love it when all 10 of us can get together.
* My nephews are getting so big and smart. Makes me feel old.
* I want them to know they can talk to me about anything they want and not get in trouble. I have really been thinking about the drugs and alcohol in school and how I was afraid to talk to my parents about things like that. I definitely never would have approached my Aunts or Uncles about it. I want to be the adult they can confide in and feel safe in doing so.
* I worry about them. I know they are so young now, but you learn things quick in school.
* Do you know how much I learned when Cazen went through Kindergarten last year. And now he is about to start 1st grade?? Scary, let's just say that.
* I'm going to have to break down and mow this weekend.
* My grandparents 50th wedding anniversary is this weekend. I'm excited for them but they are not a typical couple. They have lived virtually in separate houses since I was a kid. They may live with each other 1/2 of the week. Not now... they just built a multi-million dollar home in Runaway Bay on the golf course and my Papa's making my Nana sale their house in Grapevine. They will now be co-habitating 24/7.... SCARY THOUGHT!! I hope they don't kill each other. Sounds crazy, I know. But it works for them. I think because they are getting older they have given in and decided one house for both will be enough.
* Don't you kind of wish you had a spare house to run to when things got stressful or you wanted to get away?? Yeh, not a bad problem to have.
* I am ready to go fishing.
* Did I mention Mexico was amazing??

First Person video of Joplin MO tornado 5/22/11

This video gives me goose bumps...

I cannot even begin to imagine how scary this was for everyone who experianced it.

THE SAME GUY WHO TOOK THE ABOVE VIDEO - Aftermath of First person Joplin Tornado

Friday Fun Day!

Sadie lady aka only child after a hard night of partying with us ;)

I have a pretty fun filled weekend. We are going to Ft. Worth tomorrow for a 8 year old birthday party. They are going to have laser tag at the park outside. I am not sure how that is going to work since I have only played it at an actually laser tag place, but we will see.

Afterword me and the hubby are going shopping for vacation clothes. This my friends, is either going to go really good or really bad for me. My husband would rather spend $100.00 on a pair of pants, jeans, shorts, shirts whatever than to scope for sales. I am the complete opposite. I mean for goodness sakes my favorite store is ROSS because although you have to dig through a bunch of clothes you are rewarded in the end with all the bargains you found!! So, to be honest the only reason I have conned him into going is because my sister and brother in law are going to. I guess he figures him and the BIL can escape and let me and my sister shop the way we want then all meet up later in the day. We will see how that goes.

I think we are going to Grapevine Mills. I went there a couple weeks ago, but was only in there to go to the OAKLEY store, and I was back out the door.

Which by the way, I bought me my first pair of Oakley's for only $39.00!!!! I have never spent that much money on a pair of glasses. I haven't lost them yet "knock on wood".

Less than a month till vacation... eek!

Last year we went to Mexico and my phone bill went up $90.00 because I had to call home a couple times and texts messages. . . I called AT&T to put the phones on international text and cell phone for a week. It is going to costs around $65.00 to put the service on and they still charge you by the minute to make calls. WTF! The 65.00 would be prorated for only the time we used it, that is if I can remember to call the day we get back and cancel the add-ons.
Prorated will probably be around $21.00 for 10 days. I think I'm going to go ahead and get it. Anything is better than the bill I paid last year. I almost had a heart attack.

I graduated from Paralegal school! OK, I know it's not college, but I was proud of myself! I'm thinking about taking the exam to be listed with the State Bar.

As much as I enjoyed scuba diving I cannot partake in it anymore. Last year I went with hubby and my ear drum busted. I was miserable after that, but still had a good time. I have always had ear problems, and I am accident prone, so I better stay away from that this year.

I want to go parasailing but this scares the shit out of me.

I want to go to the market but this scares the shit out of me.

All in all it should be a good time. This will be our 5th trip to Cancun, 2nd the same resort.

I have a closing to get to, gotta go !
peace

SO GLAD IT'S $%&*^@*$ FRIDAY!!

Mississippi Bridge



Royal Wedding overkill. So glad it is over.


I couldn't even watch the REAL news this morning, which really bugged me.


I have come to find that the news is like my coffee. It's the first thing I turn on in the monring and the last thing I turn off before going to work.


That makes me sound old.


The tornado that hit Alabama is horrific. I cannot imagine what those people went through. I was speechless at all of the videos and pictures.


What if it really is becoming the end of the world??

Our house taxes went up by $20,000.00!! I was SO PISSED!! Really??? $20,000.00!! If I could sale my house for what Wise Freaking County Appraisal District says it's worth I would be RICH! We are still fighting it, we will see what happens.

I have a bad headache, I just took something for it. Maybe it will go away soon.

I am hoping this time next year I can post a pic of our new inground pool!! I know they are a pain in the ass to keep up with but how cool is it going to be to lay in my OWN pool, in my OWN yard, however I want.

Playing the stock market is a little scary/exciting.

Enough for now, I have to get outta here.

testing 2

testing 2

Edit: I think I'm happy with the ap, seeing how it's free and all. The only draw back: You cannot pick from the Camera Roll. You can only take a picture. But for a free ap, not bad at all.

testing

testing

Edit: I just found a free blog ap called blogMe and was testing it out. Not a bad ap if you just want to take a quick photo and post really quick. I'm really not big on the map thing. I'll try again minus the map.

Alcohol?? Yes please!

* So I just started parralegal school. I figured since I never successfully completed college and I have been in the legal profession for 11 years, I need to do something. It's only an 8 week program, the boss man paid for it, and although it's not law school, I will at least be able to legally title myself as a paralgel.

* I'm hoping the first week is the hardest because I have not been that stressed out in a long time. It's ALOT of reading, which I have absolutly no problem with. There is 2 graded quizzes each week. They are 20 questions, 30 minutes timed. Any amount over deduct point for your grade. Quizzes make up 60% of your grade, and so on and so on. My problem?? The book is sporatic (is that a word?) It's chopped up, I can't follow it. It is not written in terms people use to learn new terms! URGGGHHH!!!!!!!!! So frustrating. I have managed to make an 80 on both quizzez last week .

* On to other things before I work myself up into a tizzy again.

* I am beginning to think Charlie Sheen is off the drugs and that is his normal self off the drugs. I think it's sad but as I have always said, everybody loves to see a good train wreck.

* The tsubnami in Japan is the most heart breaking/facinating/raw video I think I have ever seen. It's almost too much to wrap your head around.

* I have been to the new Brookshires and I have to say I LOVE IT!! They are a little more expensive, but to have a variety of things, in my opinion, it is totally worth it. The produce section looked like a picture out of a magazine. I was impressed. It's so nice to be able to cook different things because you have a grocery store that sales a variety of food.

* The husband bought some tuna steaks from Brookshires, seasoned them with garlic, lemon pepper, and regular pepper, crizzled them with olive oil and baked at 350 for 20 minutes. It was SO good!

* Trying to get the internet hooked up at my house is SO stressful. I'm so frustrated with Century Link I thought about cancelling my home phone and everything. Unfortunetly they are the only house phone provider out my way. WTH????? Can you say monopoly? So frustrating!!

* We are leaving in June to go to Mexico and all I can think about now is a tsnami. I guess I would be dying happy.

* I am not at all worried about the violance in Mexico (knock on wood). We have decide dwe have been enough that we can pass up the gift shops for everyone suveniers and be comepletely guilt free about it. So, we go from airport to hotel and hotel to airport. Thats it. There is no need to go anywhere else.

* If we were to die I would hope they would save it for the ride to the airport when we go back home so we can at least enjoy the week. J/k!!

* My sister bought a $200 cow hide for their living room and her new german sheppard chewed a hole in it this morning. She hasn't had it a week. I had my concerens...

I gotta get back to work.

Happy Birthday Grant, we love you and miss you !!

Allow me to bitch...

* What the shit is she wearing?
* What the hell is on her face?

* I don't know why this woman gets under my skin so bad.

* I'm beginning to think I am too old to "get her".

* I don't even like her music, and I love all types of music.

* She goes down the red carpet in an egg?

* I was watching this this morning on GMA. I was ready to kick in my tv.

* What the hell is up with all her little monsters???

* Geesh!! They have a I HATE LADY GAGA facebook, that I am seriously contemplating LIKEING!!

* and I HATE the word HATE.

* P.S. I really like Britney Spears. With that being said I think her new release sucks. It's mediocre. I had my expectation too high I guess.

* Let's hope her album offers more.

peace!

* The sunset yesterday evening was gorgeous from my back yard. I should have snapped a pic with my phone but I was just too lazy. I regret it now cause I could have posted it here.
* Cleaning up a house that was previously lived in by hoarders is not fun. This place is TV worthy.
* I felt SO happy to work out yesterday in shorts and a tank top. It made my day.
* I never realized it but the weather affects my moods. I have been dragging butt for the past month feeling tired all the time and just being lazy. I think it had to do with the weather.
* I'm still dragging a tad, but the lazy is wearing off. I got up this morning and worked out, and I'll do it again when I get home this evening.
* I still do not have Internet at home. There was a slight glimmer of hope about three weeks ago when they said it was available. By the time I got home from work they called and said they were working out the kinks, to call back next week.
*I have called every week like clock work - still no Internet.
* Me and my husband hate valentines day because it's just another reason to spend money, so we both agreed to not exchanges gifts, stay home and watch a movie.
* I cooked us some steamed broccoli and a Rib eye on the George Foreman and we watched SAW The Final Chapter. I thought it was funny eating a vday dinner with my man, all the while watching a gruesome movie. I laughed about it...
* Steaks just don't taste the same unless you cook them on a charcoal grill. The steaks I cooked last night were ok, just not as good as the grill.
* Ive got a super busy day tomorrow.
* I need a good healthy pork chop recipe. All I usually do is grill pork chops, and that gets boring. Any ideas??
* Gotta go, busy day!

SICK OF WINTER ! ! ! !

ENOUGH SAID ! !

The Past Week

* Wow. . . last week was some craziness!!

* I have never been stranded at home for that long.

* At first we had only cold water until Wednesday morning when we had NO WATER.

* Do you know how long it takes to melt snow into water? A LONG FREAKING TIME !! And then you are majorly disappointed when it's hardly any water?? Sheesh . . . we melted probably 50 gallons on snow. It took about 2 hours and it only filled the toilets up once to flush and once to refill again.

* After all that snow melting my nephew needed to use the bathroom. Both me and my husband said that's fine but DON'T FLUSH THE TOILET!!!!!!! About 30 seconds later we hear a flush.... Errggg!!!! Oh well, by Thursday night my neighbor had come to our rescue and fixed the water.

* We thought it was froze the whole time underground somewhere, it turns out we had an electrical short and it took all of about 20 minutes to fix!!!! WTH?? Seriously, we could have had water two days ago.....

* Oh well.... live and learn I guess.

* We decided we needed to make a sled and try and have some fun in the snow so my husband got the four wheeler out and found a huge piece of carpet and made a sled for us. Who wants a magic carpet ride??? hee hee, it made for some good jokes.

* Some friends of ours brought over a boogie board. I thought that was funner than the carpet.

* I really felt sorry for my Sadie dog cause she was so cold. I tried to leave her in the house, she just really didn't want any part of it. So, she mainly slept in the shop on the couches.

* I would have been IRATE if I spent all that money and time getting their and then turned away. Jerry better watch his ass for the next few weeks. Theres a lot of people pissed off.

* I have to admit, I guess I wasn't really paying attention when Christina messed the lyrics up. I thought something seemed off, but I never really paid attention.

*We are suppose to get another batch of this crap?? Ugh!! I hate to say it but I am not looking forward to it. I have too much to do at work.

* Hurry Up Summer, I miss you !

I have been reluctant to do this . . .

... because it's hard to talk about...

Last year was one of many years I wish I could rewind, lock up and throw away the key. I want the whole year to erase. Or maybe I would just take a handful of months away because really the whole year wasn't horrible just the first few months.

William Grant Edwards

My dear friend, The LIFE of the party, my loving cousin, died in a horrible car accident the day after my birthday February 26th last year. I woke up that morning, like every morning and watched the news. I saw the wreck on the news and vividly remember saying a prayer for the family of the victim of that accident on 380. I went on about my morning, got ready for work and left the house. Got to work and received a phone call from a friend I hadn't spoken to in a while. I thought at the time it was weird but it was a Friday so I figured they may want to come out that weekend or something so I proceeded to answer the phone. The following is what transpired:

Caller: Hey you busy?
Me: I just got to work whats up?
Caller: Hey, have you heard anything about Grant I heard he was in a bad car accident.
Me: No!! I haven't is he ok? Do you know what happen? Oh my gosh! I'm sure if Dad knew he would have called. Hang on let me call him real quick.
Caller: Umm . . . I . . . I . . . I don't really know much about it thats why I called you.

At this point Caller figures out that he knows my cousin has passed away and he doesn't want to be the one to tell me :(

Dad: No Billy has tried to call me several times but now I can't get ahold of him.
Me: Well I heard Grant was in a wreck and I don't know how bad or if he's ok or what.
Dad: Well I guess I'll run out to the house and see whats going on because Billy won't answer.
Me: Ok call me back when you know something.

Five minutes later my dad met the Sheriff coming out of Billy and Grant's driveway. It's confirmed... Grant's gone..... Billy locked himself in his truck for hours. Just over two years ago, weeks from the date, we lost my Aunt Evelyn of cancer. Grant's mother, Billy's wife . . .
I struggle with wandering how one person can lose so much and still be sane. A family of four, is now a family of 2?? 1/2 gone . . . Just gone . . .
I guess Jesus gets you through it. I know he got me through this year...

That is an empty feeling. Why?? Grant had just had a baby boy in December. He will never get to experience marrying the love of his life, raising his beautiful son . . . cause he's gone.

The day we buried Grant, Murphy went missing. Haven't seen him sense. I still miss that little guy...

Maybe all of these loss and life experiences prepares you to have more faith, give more love and cherish the moments you have with the people you love. That right there really makes me realize how much God has blessed me with. I may not have children but I have alot of Joy in my life and I am content with that.

I have high hopes for this year. We are going to be welcoming a new baby nephew into the family this year, we already have vacation booked and unlike this time last year I only have about 10 pounds (not 60) to lose to rock my bikini bod :)

That is one positive thing I did for myself. I actually stuck with a New Years resolution and kept the weight off.

I don't know if I have many readers but who ever is reading this may God bless your life in 2011. Keep your family close to your heart. You never know when God will call them home...